Indecision

I was my usual indecisive self last Wednesday. It was raining; should I go anyway? Can I contact the crew in time? I didn't want to go especially if there would not be a race, but I don't want to be perceived as a fair weather sailor! I would feel badly if a race was held and I wasn't there. However, I have been doing a lot of sailing, with events on Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday. Eventually I decided not to go and that was that. A clear and unequivocal email was sent to the crew. I must demonstrate an air of confidence to my crew (?). I spend a bit of time thinking but once I have decided I have decided. Indecisive or ambiguously decisive?